Monday, November 30, 2009

Ho, Ho, Ho, and get me the hell out of here!

Well, it has started. The other half just adores Christmas and every year our apartment shows it. Not that it's entirely a bad thing. The problem is, she has so much stuff. Too much for the small apartment we have. So, in an effort to put everything up, the entire apartment EXPLODES every year. Call me a Scrooge if you want to, but I no longer see the reason Christmas decorations need to be up before December. Like I said in another post, I really could do without the season. Maybe she's the cosmic Yin to my Yang. I would be happy with no decorations and she does enough for 12 people! Oh well, at least we have an artificial tree. Picking needles out of my feet until June is not my idea of "festive". I'm sure if you dug a bit at my mom's house, you could find needles from 1987!

Ho, ho, ho, fa, la, la, la...'Tis the season I guess...

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Things I am thankful for...

I've been noticing a lot of people on Facebook are really getting into the whole "Things I'm thankful for" updates lately, and I thought that I would get into it too. The problem is, I'm thankful for so many things, it would be impractical to use Facebook updates. Instead, I will give a handy, easy to manage, list right here!

The Things I am thankful for

  • I am thankful that, as a general rule, the people that vote for American Idol are not the same folks that vote for president.
  • I am thankful that we live in an age where those of us who can be classified as geeks can cherish it and live proudly in our geekness.
  • I am GREATLY thankful for Facebook's 'hide' option. The number of posts I have to wade through thanks to that lovely button has decreased exponentially.
  • I am thankful for Sid Meier's programming brilliance. If it wasn't for his amazing line of Civilization games, I would have had thousands of hours that I would have had to kill some other way.
  • I am thankful for the Chicago Cubs and San Jose Sharks. I really do enjoy having my expectations, no matter how low, go unmet year after year after year after year.
  • I am thankful for the NCAA and their Bowl Championship Series. Without it, there would be no chance to argue over the best college football team.
  • I am thankful for the Wisconsin climate. Where else on the planet is it possible to experience 5 seasons in 4 days?
  • I am thankful for our local media because, lets face it, we really need helicopter coverage following Brett Favre from the airport to his house.
  • Lastly, I am thankful for Rich Rodriguez. Thanks to him, I have my Saturday afternoons in the fall free to do whatever I like.

OK, by now you know that all (most?) of the above is to be taken tongue in cheek. Still, this is the season of thanks however, and I would be remiss if I didn't hand out a few heartfelt thanks. First and foremost is a thanks to everyone involved with and who attend Crosswalk Church in Waukesha. They have gone over and above to help my family and I in many ways. Also, anyone who has helped us out at all during this trying time. I won't mention you individually without asking permission, but you know who you are. Lastly, while this will sound like it belongs above, I thank the inventor(s) of all the energy drinks. Without them, a vast amount of my writing would not have been done. Thank you all!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Kicking my own ass

OK, I guess that needs a bit of background....

As some of you may know, one of my hobbies is writing. Not just blogging, but writing poems and stories. I am currently working on a rough draft of a full length novel. Because I have a hard time writing when there is too much going on, my time to write is limited to the few hours Tuesday through Thursday when both kids are away at school or after everyone else goes to bed. The problem there is, the daytime hours are usually used for my job hunting and cleaning that can't be done when the kids are here. If you have a three year old, you know the frustration of trying to pick up when they are awake! So that leaves the late night as the best time. Unfortunately, I have to be up at 7 most mornings to get the kids organized. Pair that up with the fact that our three year old (who is still up as I write this!) rarely falls asleep before midnight, and that leaves almost no time.

So when situations like last night occur, I am thankful. My daughter was spending the night at one of the grandmother's house, neither kid had to be up at any particular time this morning, and my GF went to bed shortly after she got home from her bible study. When the tree year old fell asleep around midnight, I thought that I could get a solid 2-3 hours of productivity in.

That's where the title of this post comes in. My muse, never one to cooperate often, decided that it was time for his vacation. I sat there, writing totem and all, for two hours. What did I get out of those two hours? 116 words. 116 F'ing words. I have had nights where I was able to write 10 times that in half the time. Arrrgggghhhh...

I guess that's the nature of writing. I just wish it wasn't at such a bad time. Oh well, the Sharks game is over, it looks like the little guy is starting to wind down, so I guess I'm off to try it again. My coffee cup is near by (caffeine does wonders for my writing brain), my totem is close at hand, and I will be grabbing the MP3 player shortly. Wish me luck!

Bah humbug!

Well, here we are, 7 days from the semi-official start of the Christmas (all you "Happy Holiday people" can bite me!) Season, and I am feeling more humbuggy than normal. The Christmas season has always been a time I would rather not have on the calendar. I won't bore you with the details, but let's just say that the season has screwed me one too many times. My happiest Christmas Eve was in 2001. My roommates were at their families homes and I had the place to myself with nowhere to I had to be. Heaven.

This year, however, is going to go down as one of the lower ones. Unless things change in a vast hurry (and with the economy the way it is, I don't see things changing), I will still be unemployed. That will cause stresses that we all could do without. Besides, I really have no desire to see anyone this year. I haven't talked to my mother in almost two years, and if I have anything to say about it, it will stay that way. I have never really felt welcome with my girlfriend's family and the travel time to see my dad is almost too much to be worth the effort.

I wonder why I even bother anymore. No matter what I do, things end up sucking, or worse. Maybe I'll just say the hell with it, let the GF take the kids to her family for Christmas Eve and I'll stay home and try to finish off my book I'm writing. I'm sure her family will think I'm an ass for not coming, but I honestly think they already think that anyway. Oh well, I will see I guess...